Words are said
with that stupid laughing emoji,
as though they aren’t going to impact all I do
for the next six months.
My heart is broken yet we laugh about it.
Chocolate hair has visited my dreams since
tormenting the way I treat my friends
because someone I grew up with,
decided I was no longer worth it.
I know I’m not a good person
but surely even I deserve to be told.
The last time I saw you,
you hardly said two words
then shut the door in my face.
I drove home shaking,
my best friend in the passenger seat
was afraid we were going to crash.
how dare you do that to her.
The last time we spoke, you didn’t.
I sent messages and watched
as you left me on ‘seen’.
You said I should reach out
but ignored when I did
“goes to show how much
ten years of friendship means to her”
I’m sorry you feel that way.
I’m sorry you feel the need
to burn such a reliable bridge.
I’m sorry you couldn’t realise
that you walked all over
the people who would have
made the world turn backwards,
just for you.
I’m sly? I guess I have to accept that.
And I guess I’ll warn people of it
when they make moves to be my friend.
I’m sly, whatever you mean by that..
Don’t worry, none of this was supposed to make sense, just like none of what she’s doing does.